Moving from Emptiness

The happiest memory from my wedding day probably isn’t at all what you might think. Let me start out by telling you that I’m not afraid to share that my new husband and I didn’t make love the night of our wedding day. We were both exhausted and getting up super earlier the next day to get to the airport to fly to Jamaica for our honeymoon (where we would have much wonderful lovemaking 🙂 – no when I laid down next to my man that night, in my pretty white nightgown, he held me in his arms as I cried. I was crying because I had this overwhelming sense of disappointment. I didn’t understand it at the time, but I think I was realizing that all the effort, worry and anxiety I’d put into trying to make our wedding day perfect hadn’t worked. Things went in ways unexpectedly that I saw as wrong . And looking back they were such stupid things – like I hated how our cake tasted. I was so upset by it I had to hold back the tears. Stuff like that – dumb right? Anyway, laying in our wedding bed with my partner Michael holding me in his arms, gently comforting me as I cried something amazing happened. He didn’t say anything – he just held me and loved me. He let me cry with no criticism or comment. It was in that moment, when I felt that unconditional love move between us, I knew in my heart that I had married the right man. And 31 years later, I say the same thing. I definitely married the right man. Namaste and blessings, Mia Bella

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